I dont know much

and I know I'm not the coolest, most popular blogger dude
and I'm pretty positive all 100 views have been by me.
and I dont know that many people who do blog.

But.

These awesome dudes have some great thought, ideas, and words to share.
Really good stuff.

Casey Crane-http://casimer.wordpress.com/
Mike Brandes-http://mikebrandes.com/

I'm learning everyday. I doubt everyday. I need everyday. I pray everyday. I wonder everyday. I feel lonesome...what I mean to say is that sometimes I wish I could do everything for someone. I want so share my life, but I know I want to be the best person I can be, it would be selfish wish for an amazing person to be with a slacker. haha. I wonder if someone sees it in me.

For some reason this horse has always struck a cord with me, since I was little. His melancholy eyes, his loneliness, and imperfections. He still stands proud. I created a story for him. It seems we are all searching.

I know in no way I am alone. That's what so beautiful about God, that forever we will have someone to rest our head on. Seeking Him will always be the best decision of my day no matter what.

People are incredible. People are incredibly strange. People are difficult. I really want to work on connecting with everyone, since we are all people. I do instantly read my peers, especially new ones, and make an assumption. I think about all the people I see everyday and never connect or talk with. Its so strange. Why are we not more loving I ask. I want be a mirror. I want to reflect Gods love, and my love. It really does strike someone when they see sincerity. Sincerity. What a beautiful thing.

So for now I wonder how's your heart. and how mine is too.
Day by day. I'm grateful.

Hows it feel to dissapear?

Like serioulsly dissapear.

for all that it would be worth, it wouldnt be worth it at all to do so.
there are great things out there, but it seems to be hard to decide if
time and heart will show return.

I want to go there, don't you?

If your gone it's hard to know.

We move so quickly through people we know and meet. Some we hang on to for dear life. Others take with the wind, and lots we consider distant memories.

I think it's funny how much we learn about ourselfs through other people. When we go back,

it's like getting script read back at you. Outside looking in on a part of your own life.

We really find out if we were as good as we believed we were, or wished we were.

Were we good friends, loves, liars, kissers, singers.

Or did we block out the bad parts, and only until a later date we review the footage and find that we were slightly off our self image.

Though sometimes we're on point.

But it's good to hear it all. If we can see how we've grown (hopefully) and how much we learned, it inspires.

When it comes to our hearts. It's hard to say what we really mean sometimes. And it's hard to know what we are looking for, or if we should be looking, but have that one person you fall in love with. " I never thought I could bite hard enough", or never thinking I can have that one person, but hopefully it's there. I know I want to meet someone who makes me want to be better everyday, at everything I do. I'll be waiting.

In the mean while it's good to know we can rely on our friends to carry us, I know I'll carry mine if and when the need me too. Anytime.

Old friends, new friends, and acquaintances.

The people who feel like you've known all your life.

I'm greatful for every moment.

Growing all the time. Hopefully it means something to someone.

Is my heart really new?

When you leave, my powders and my teas will speak their heads off to me

When one note, from one song, makes you feel.
It's your heavy eyes.
It's your long day.
It's the person you like.
It's your best friends.
It's your hopes and dreams.
It's your happiest you've ever been.
It's a silly wish that someone else has a list similar to this.

With so much change happening it's good to stop and listen to this note.
Maybe it's from your favorite tune, or a note you play, or sing out loud, or under your breath.
Whatever it may be, we all need to be more expresssive.

This one note makes me feel like we don't tell the ones we care most for how much we care for them enough. It is something that goes unsaid, but it should be audible, almost tangible.
Friends, Family, make it known. We are here to love.

Alot to work on.
Thank the Lord.

And you'll find the peace of the Lord

Every once and awhile in life, there are times where everything seems perfect. And always at a perfectly placed moment. Little glimpses of whats to come. It may not be the lasting moment that we all hope for, but as if for a split second my eyes are opened and I see that everything is okay. Not that anything is bad. It's just the small stuff I focus on in life, and put in my mind as what I think I need (want) haha but in reality I really don't know what.

I realized when all the focus I put on these petty things, is on the Lord, my heart keeps time with His words, the good in things come though in color, and like dye, stain my hands. Its lasting love. When recently these moments occur, I take it in, take a breath, and I thank the Lord. And though it might not be now,I know if I seek up, one day. I'm grateful for the amazing family I have, and my amazing friends. Goodness.

Good things. so sleep now. wake. and start anew.